You know how in all the movies there's that point when theres only about 40 minutes left and all hope seems lost? Like the hero is down on his luck and on his own? Thats kinda what today felt like at school.

I was ecpecting Killian and Dierdre would wanna talk to me about what happened to Doyle and Rue last week, but that never happened. They never even looked at me once at all this whole week it feels like.
Everywhere I go in the halls it felt like I was partying the red sea like in Prince of Egypt, and everyone would clear away from me. Does everyone think I had something to do with this?
Does everyone hate me?

When my mom comes to pick me up after school every day, she asks me how my day went like everything's normal. Have none of the parents been told two students were found murdered last week?
I don't know what to say. I feel like I'm the only onelosing my mind. I don't know where to start, and my gut feels full of ice cubes and it's so heavy to say outloud and my eyes start to sting
And all I tell my mom is "Fine."

There was this one time in 6th grade when a classmate, Scott Skomski got in trouble for calling Jenna Yorkoski an "effing B%@#" and he got put on probation and his dad was called. I remember the whole rest of the day, Scott was crying and scared, saying that his dad beats him at home, and he knew he was gonna get it bad after school today. When I got home, I told my mom, and she told a teacher, and the teacher rolled her eyes and said he knew Scott's dad and it was all overblown. I don't think anyone ever looked into it any further. But Scott wore long sleeves the rest of the month and never rolled them up. My mom told me I watch too many teen soap operas. The teachers teased me for "crying wolf" and Scott was mad I told other adults what I said.

But no one ever got mad at the adult who was actually hurting a kid.
I still think I did the right thing, even if it feels like no one ever agreed with me. Is the same thing happening all over again?
Maybe it isn't the whole schhol that's been ignoring me this week. Maybe it's me. Maybe I'm the one whos been shutting myself off from engaging with everyone else.
I'm just scared that if I keep looking any deeper, I might find something. I don't think I can do this by myself.

I sure could use an early release day right about now.